i'm losing u .. seriously ..

well . to be honest, i'm losing u , since u didn't show urself , in front of me .. okayy , this is all my fault . my fault coz i said that i dont wanna see u anymore ..

*stupid girl* , and now, u have dissapeared because of my mistake ..

how can i be very" stupid girl ? how can i say that i dont wanna see u ??!!

aargghhh ..

it's drive me crazy !! i have a reason why i said that to u .. not because i do so mean, but i just dont wanna ruin everything .. i just dont wanna hurt anybody ..

:(

so plis, to be honest, i really need u .. really really need u .

deep in my heart, u're my still best friend , *maybe more than that*.. u're still my J ..

when i see ur face, i wanna hold u , hug u .. i want u to come to my home, stick together, and play for all day long like we used to do ..

there's soooo much i've to tell u ..

to be honest , I MISS U SOOOO BADLY ..

seriously , i miss u sooo much ..

i miss ur word, i miss ur angry, i miss when u give me an advice, i miss ur spirit ,

one thing, i miss ur smile .. ur smile that can give me one spirit to face the world, who give me power to through this life ..

for me, u're still my guardian angel ..

and i still remember ur word that u wrote in ur letter :

"tetaplah tersenyum meski kamu sedang menangis.. katakan pada malaikat surgawi, kamu bisa melewatinya.."

that's the word who always give a spirit when i wanna cry ..

thx so muchh ..

and i hope u read this .. so that u know, the truth is, i never wanna let u go ...